Who wants to feel like their life is ending just as a new chapter in it is about to begin?
But that’s the way I feel right now. Breakfast was a lot of food. A lot. And I finished it all, but all I want to do is cry and exercise and get rid of it somehow and then cry some more until I don’t feel anything any longer.
I want to travel. I want to inspire people. I want to write. I want to draw. I want to laugh. I want to love. I want to live. But this disorder is so alarmingly in the way that I find myself questioning if it’s worth it with every bite I take.
And it’s absolutely torturous. Please, if you know of any recovery center or method ANYWHERE that will genuinely help… Please let me know. I can’t do this the way things are.