Two Ensures Down

… Four to go on the day. God I hate this. It makes me feel so nauseous, bloated, and disgusting, not to mention appalled at myself. But I want a solid breakfast tomorrow so I have to do it. And that’s what I hate. I hate the stringency and the mandatory nature of everything. I’m learning how to separate that hatred that steams from my eating disorder from the me who actually, in some mysterious realm, may want recovery. Much love 💜

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